As i sit hear and blog to you all i have to wonder does any one even read these??? really i mean do you ?? or do you hear enough from me you dont read them ??? could i say what ever i wanted on hear because you dont read my post?? if you do cool if not eh so goes life...
i had to blog to night because im both happy mad frustrated and relived.
why you much ask?
well its simple ok
1-HAPPY- why i have my reasons to be mad i do have reasons to also be
happy at the same time. i have a roof over my head food in my stomick
and all the things you would need i dont want for anything huge ok i
want a camera but hey im cool with saving lol. I am generally a happy person :D its not always easy but i try to stay happy for my hubby because i know things are not always easy for him with his job and everything he deals with so i try and be strong for him i am happy that we have what we have and i hope and pray hat things will get better as we go
2- MAD....I had a intervew the other day and i was sooooo happy i had this intervew and my first one went amazing!! and they liked me enough they had me do a 2ed intervew!!! go me!! but for the first time in EVER me being YOUNGER was a problem.... really come on!!! I have never been turned down from a job because i was to young EVER not enough experience Ok i get that totally cool with that but not having kids and being younger kept me from having a chance at this job.....if you were looking for some one older be up front with me tell me that dont get my hopes all up and say you want a 2ed intervew and then smash me like a bug because im to young.... (thought they did not say that to my face when i saw the people the did take on it was loud and clear) this is why i am MAD i dont think its fair i would of bent over backwards for this job! i give 100% every chance i get i never call in sick because i have the sniffels or a head ace NO i put on my big girl pants and do my freeking job!! but i get it you dont want to invest all the time in me only to have me turn around in a year year and a half and say " o im Pregnant i need my leave for x amount of time" get that but when you are looking for some one and you know you are looking for some one OLDER put that on your freeking ADD this among other things have kind of made this a not so grate week.... or month for me so far
3- FRUSTRATED....why you may ask well.... pregnant people piss me off lol no offense to any of you that are but damn it go be cute and loveable some wear easel!! i want so bad to be a mom but every time we think that we might be ready something comes up and we cant even think of having one.. why well when lake got this job we were happy we thought good pay good hours we were going to save up and have a better house then we are in now and have a baby well his hours got cut... not cool an 1000$ a month cut ouch!!! that was are new house we wanted and saving.. we barley have enough to cover are bills. I under stand you all LOVE these low gas prices but i pray they go up!! its just so frustrating that i wan to be a mom so bad more then any thing and with this price cut it hurt us bad and i just get frustrated is all.... i know you probly think boo hoo poor little coriann but im worred with my skin thing i have that the longe we wait the more chance i have of it acting up and causing problems sooo ya its hard for me :(
4- RELIVED.... back to the Frustrated that ties in to relived im relived that we are not pregnant or have a baby if we were or had a baby i would be so worried that with what had happened to his job that we would be in trouble and i dont like using the State to have one or for help it drives me nuts when people use the state for money i am also relived that my husband has a job and we have food to eat and a roof over are head
being an oil field wife is not always easy i know every one thinks OOO the money but really with the price drop not that grate and the chance of my husband being blown up EVERY SINGLE day scares the crap out of me. he may not have the most dangerous job in the world but it is in the top 10 if some one messes up or does something wrong he might not come home if some one opens something to soon it could blow up in his face and burn him and potenchaly kill him and news flash the health care plan ... not that grate..... I love my husband and i love are life together i would not triad are time together for any thing but please keep in mind when you buy gas and think good hell its bull crap about the price and bitch about it please reambe that my husband puts his life on the line EVERY DAY so that your car will run and you have pro-pain in you stove to cook or run your heat my husband put his life on the line for it thought no one has been hurt on his rought 2 men did pass away form doing what he does.
Ok thats my rant for tonight if you managed to read all of it cool if not thats fine i did this for me i needed to get it out and let some steam off and please rember every time you fill your car up or buy any thing that deals with gas rember then men and women that put there life on the line every day to give you it.
