A year gone by

I cant bealieve its been a year since lake and i have been married!!! ok a little over but still a year!!!!

So we left Friday Night and i thought we were just going to stay the night at his moms nothing speachel ya know just go see that family hang out and then leave to go to Utah.
so we got to his parents house we were just hanging out when lake decided he needed to go help Dave move some stuff and i was like OK so i sat at his parents house and waited for him to come back.

he came back and he said lests go for icecream ....and i for the first time in like FOR EVER did not want any.... odd i know but he talked me in to it so we got in the car and headed to town ...only the wrong way sooooo i asked were are we going he said there is a new icecream shop were i was like ok cool... he then made me cover my eyes so it was a suprise!!! .... i dont like nit being able to see were we are going BUT i covered my eyes any way sooooo we drove for a bit then he got out and lead me up the stars and opend the door and said

ok you can open your eyes now

we were in the black swan in. :D i have always wanted to go there nut lake does not like to with his past marriage and all  but he took me!!! I was sooooo surprised!!!!! he got use the Pirate room!!! i loved it !!! (there was a SWEEET shower!!!) he had two bottles of sparkling syder and snacks and every thing!!!! i loved it!!

So the next morning we got up and headed to SLC to go shoping and go to Manti to take Pictures my most FAV temple in the whole world ( were we plan on geting syeld)

any who we drove down to utah ( well Lake drove i HATE SLC) and went shopping and lake picked out cloths for me hes getting pretty good at it to. :) camo pants brown boots and a cream shirt :) and Fudge mmmmm fudge And lake got a gun :)

I had such a grate weekend with my Love!! he showed me that he loves me more now then he did when we met and i love him more now then when when we first met also he is my best friend my true sole mate i love you more then any thing in this world baby!! you are my rock and my strength i cant wait to start a family with you because i know you are going to be the best dad and father any one could ask for :) your the best thing in the world to me and that is never going to change. here is to you and me tell forever i love you so much baby!!

 

flash back to the hell of high school

So growing up I have always had a very very hard time leting go of things that have made me mad or hurt me..... just not very good at letting go of things or telling my feelings not that any one would every lyson to me when i was younger  high school age.. and I always worried about other Peoples trouble before me so i just put it on the back burrner and let it simmer tell it over flows and I snap and bawl over nothing...

high school for me though I have not addmited it to manny people High school was hell for me I hated it so much!!! Yes I had my friends though at sometimes I felt like more of a pest to them then any thing and no one really wanted to hear about my problems so I hid them in side and worred about other people putting other people's hurts and worries before any of mine..... high school for me was tourtcher..... I may have never addmited this to any of my friends but there were plenty of times were i wanted to hurt my self but was so worried about the pian of others that I could not bring my self to do anything. ...... there were a few well more then half of guys in are graduating class that made my life hell! I really could choak all of them and be happy! Yes I know not nice but they don't get to treat me that way and think that is ok..... I have not given it a lot of thought since grad night but when we got are 5year on facebook all those emochions came fludding back. I have changed so much since then but when i saw that on facebook I got sick. I sat there thinking who I could sick my husband on letting him beat the crap out of the people who I hated in school.  I look at me then and now. And I'm not the same fat girl i was but I still don't know if I even want to go to are school reunion I do i want to see the people that were not ass holes but the bad out weighs the good at this point. ..... I know i did just let it go but 4years of high school and 2 years of middle school is a lot and 5 years away from them is not enuf to forget how they made me fill.

I feel that they shood appologies to me for the things they sad and did to me but that's like asking fish not to swim...... never going to haPpen they still as big as ass holes as they were then....

I know i shood let it go but it's so hard for me to forgive people who have said things and dun things to hurt me. ..... I make these story up in my head and then I get even madder then I was before.

I don't think i will go. Lake wants to so he can punch any one that made me fill that way but i don't want to get him I'm trouble because i know he could beta tee crisp out of every one of them. .... I knew i don't have to talk to them but seeing them is morw then emuf to piss me off.

I know I need to just let it go but i just have such a hard time

love my life! !!

So here I am sitting at work bored out of my mind. .....typeing all of this on my phone. .. yes that's right my phone. ..... is not easy but it is something to do. . So I thought I would take a min or two maybe more to tell you about my life.

Well on september 6 th 2011 I went on a date. ... big woop some would say but it was a big deal. ....

Wait let me back up a little. ...k so I had been dating a loser and things did not work out so we broke up and I moved back home. ... and any one who lived in wyoming knows it's not easy to find some one you like so I was on lds singels and when I lived in ut it wad gate Kayton was a good place to live there were plenty of guys to pick from. .... though not a run of them cought my eye I made some good friends. ... well I moved back to Wyoming in October 2010 and worked had a few dates but nun that I really saw myself sealting down with. .. so istarted to give up when I met a nice guy that was in ocklahoma well I tslkef to him for a whiel abs thought I like this kid. .... well god had a different plan for me. .... at the time I was talking to the mid in Oklahoma I was taking kind of to a guy in idaho....I did not want to talk to him much because I felt things were going good with the guy in Oklahoma. .... well I got a email from the guy in Idaho asking to see me abs go on a date..... so finley I gave in and said yes. .... Not thinking any thing would happen. ....I planed are date. ... but a few days before setting up are date I had gotten a ticket to go see the guy in Oklahoma. ......so sseptember 6 th came and I git ready for my date. ... not thinking any thing would happen. ..... well the was a knock at my door and I did not plan on finding what I did. ....
When I opened the door there in front of me was a extremaly handsome man standing in front of me. ....

 we went to dinner and a move and then hung out in the park for what seamed not that long but it was something like 3h as we were laying there we saw a shooting star and I said
"O look a shooting star. .... make s wish"
He sat there for a second being very quiet and said
Ok I did
At this point in the night in thinking. ..... he is the only guy I have ever gone on a date with that had not tried to kiss me. .... so I was a little sad. ...

Well abound 3sec aftet that he kissed me! !!!! It was unlike any kiss I had had before. ... it was purfect!!!!!

Well after he kissed me he said
"Well My wish cane true...."

Cornry I know but it was so cute! !!!!!!!

Then he said he had never been so nurvis in his life to kiss some one.
He then told me I was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen!!!!

Againg I know corney.... but I loved it! !!

He asked if he could see me again. And being the some what scared person I told him I needed to go on at least 1 date with someone else's before we could. .. so he said Ok. ... and about 4 days late I got a text saying

"Can I please see you before you go on your trip. ..."

So I said yes.

Well he was pulling his camper and got the late and ended up parking it at are house for the night I had planned to leave that next morning at about 8 am. ....I did not leave until about 5 pm.....

I did not want to get on the plain. ....I wanted to skip it and spend all weekend with him. .... but I got on my pain. ... and meet the other kid. ....I got off the plane and the only thing I vulgar think Of wad Lake....I told the kids what was going on abs he undetstood we still hung out as friends and then I went home.

I got home Sunday night and was testing Lake the whole time he was on his way back to big pinney for work and asked if he could stop and see me on his way through I was so excited to see him! !!! He stayed tell about 1130 and headed to big pinnry that was 2hawsy...

Well after that it wad all down hill. We spent almost every weekend together we Sorrento most of are time fishing or shooting guns..

We dated for 9 months before he told me he lived me! !! I had been waiting for him to say that to me since like month 3 lol I knew after are first date I did not want to be with any one but him. ... the was a click for me and I knew. From then on I wanted nothing more but to be with him.

Well after he told me he loved me we had kind of talked abut getting married a few time andmaybe a little before that so one night aaugust 3 we went  to go fishing like we would do on most Fridays nights when I got there so we were walking along the lake when he pointed out a rock that was out of place ( the rest were jagged and the one was a river rock) so I went to pick it up and found a box undet it... what is this!  I opened it to find a ring. ...I turnef around to find Lake down on one knee....

Well of corse I said yes! !!!

The most amazing part that I love telling people is that my endgment ring was hand made! !!!! By my love yep thats right Lake made my ring from a silver quater!!!!

Well about 3 months after he asked we got married!!! I could not think of any one brute to spend my life with! !! I can't wait to be sealed in the temple to him for time and sll eternity with him! !!! He is my best friend and my one true happiness he can make me smile just by smiling at me I love him so much he maked me bettet strong and happier.

I can't wait to spend the rest of are lifes togesthet.

I love you so much baby! !! For ever and always babe!!!!

I love being Coriann Lakell Loveday!!!